Feels like a Year

It feels like a year since my last post. Life is sucking my energy dry. Three jobs, three summer classes, and the ongoing battle to try and find a job are not the most ideal combination. I can hardly find time to wash my clothes, so when I do wash my clothes it is normally at the expense of something else... namely my good friend sleep.

When I do sleep I have nightmares. I am about to graduate college and I am jobless. I never really thought it would work out this way. I keep thinking 'surly this isn't happening.' But then I wake up and it is. I just cannot find a job.

I'm a good person, with a good heart, a strong worker, very creative, trained in PR, very loyal, easy-going, I adapt quickly (the whole hurricane semester going to a new school figuring out what it means to be a Texan), and I am very jobless. Not just a little jobless, VERY jobless.

My brothers got jobs right out of college. This whole situation is making me feel kind of like a loser (though deep down I know I am not, sometimes I just can't help feeling that way).

Sigh, I must work on some school work now at the library and then I need to go home and work on some more school work. It just never ends.

I must compliment myself on my job search notebook. I have each city I want to work in sectioned off and then within the city I have have different companies I want to work for and those are sectioned off and then there is a color coding 'notes' post-it telling me if I have recieved word from them.